Why make her feel special at some point in time and then leave her hanging just because you can’t stand up and act on your emotions? In the first place, if you didn’t feel ANYTHING, as in ANYTHING at all, you wouldn’t have bothered to make her feel special.

What can you call yourself if you can’t even defend someone who used to be close to you?

Goodbyes are hard. It maybe harder for the person LEAVING, but it is always the hardest for the one who's LEFT BEHIND.