Tiny Hand With Red Heart
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts

Friday, August 30, 2013

Why Nursing?

Why Nursing?

Art/Designed by Cedie.
I have also asked myself that question too many times already. I can still remember my elementary days, when asked on what course I’ll probably take when I enter college, I’d always answer, ‘An engineer! Or A teacher!’. Back then, I've always wanted to be one of those two because I was really inspired by how a teacher can inspire so many students despite a very tiring profession. How they would go on with their everyday lectures and still share something meaningful to the class. And so, up until I was a grade 6 student, being a teacher or an engineer was all I could think of.

And then, things changed when I entered high school. My perspective changed. When the time came for filling up of application forms for universities in college, I applied to two universities, Bicol University and University of Sto. Tomas.  I would've applied to Letran under a varsity scholarship but then I know I had been pretty lax on my performance In chess and so I haven’t tried; if only I had concentrated on playing chess when I was in elementary and high school, I would've pursued that path, but oh well, that’s another story. In UST, my first and second choice had been Nursing (BSN) and Electronics and Communication Engineering (ECE) respectively; while in BU my first choice was also nursing (I forgot my second choice there).

Though I admit, making up my mind to put Nursing as a first choice in the universities that I applied for college was hard because I had to set aside my childhood dream to become a teacher/engineer and also, for the little part of that dilemma comes with the fact that, I am scared of blood. Srsly. My knees would go weak whenever I see any blood. Why nursing then, if I'm afraid of shots? If I'm afraid of seeing operations? How much more if I’ll see them on a day to day basis once I become a nurse? 

Why I chose nursing can date back to when I realized that I really wanted to take care of people, to extend a helping hand to others (whether sick or healthy person) and to inspire them to take better care of themselves. This realization came to me as I was watching the TV show and I saw people in a hospital not getting the prompt treatment. It pained me to see people suffer more that what they are suffering because of delayed treatment/s just because they don't have enough money to pay for a downpayment/medicine/operation. Heartbreaking as it may sound, though its only a fictional show, this also happens in reality, you get what you pay for. That's why I made up my mind that if ever given the chance to help others, I'd really like to make a difference, no matter how small that difference may be. I also realized that I wanted to pursue a course where I can be around kids most of the times, as I find them the cutest. J I wanted to be given the opportunity to play  and laugh with them, answer their unending questions on “why’s and how’s”, as well as to teach them endless things, aside from the fact that I’ll be one of the persons assigned to care for them. I guess, being caring is a given trait if one grows up in a closely-knit family and being the eldest child, just like mine. 

Maybe, the desire fueled up inside me once I realized the dream of being a nurse overcomed any second thoughts that I had for choosing nursing as a profession.  And right now, whenever I look back, I would often tell myself that I don’t  and will never regret that decision. Yeah, I may not have a job right away, but definitely, because I chose something that I love, I know that I have chosen the path that I will never get tired of.

I've realized that every profession is tiring, every profession needs a sacrifice; but whatever profession you may choose, you should choose it with all your heart. You should NEVER choose a course just because you want to have a high paying job after you graduate; you don’t choose something just because someone told you so; you don’t choose just because you have to please your parents or you have to live their dream for you. Yes, those factors may have an impact as to what you will probably choose, but you should think first of yourself, it is your future that’s at stake after all. If in the course of your journey, you fail; you cannot fall back to an excuse and blame them for persuading you because you had a choice in the first place. And so you’ll have to decide for yourself.  


A nurse in white


"Choose the profession that you love, something that you have passion for. Do whatever makes you happy.  Because doing something that you love as a profession is probably the most satisfying job you’ll ever have." - Zsusa Lorena

‘Tis me,
Nurse Miss Z, J


Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Enroute Manila.

At some point in our lives, we have to leave in order to grow. And that’s one part I hate about growing up. I know it can’t be helped, but still. :( It’s been almost a month since our board exam, and I know, I have to have plans already. I can’t just sit here at home and wait for something to happen because NOTHING will ever happen. I have to start looking for a job. Srsly.

No one’s pressuring me about these stuff, but still, I have to know what I want to do, where I wanna be.

But how do you start a new chapter in your life when you know you’ll be leaving your comfort zone and the people you've been living most of your life with? If only I could be in two places at a time. But that’s next to impossible. I guess I have to act as an adult that I am and start wanting for more.

What do I want? Where do I want to be? These thoughts keep on running on my mind. I want to try a lot of things. But I don’t exactly know where to start. >_<  Right now, I’m practically clueless.

I’ll be leaving again anytime soon to who-knows-where and I don’t know what fate awaits me there. I know that I have to have faith and be strong.  Because starting a new chapter in my life may be difficult, but it’s what I have to do. Goodbyes are next to I’ll-see-you-soon in who-knows-when, but it’s something we all go through at some point in our lives. It’s difficult, but it can’t be helped. Who loves goodbyes anyway? :(

26 June - 02 July 2013.
This week had been like a roller-coaster ride for me. Me and my friend were just trying our luck sending our resumes to various companies via jobstreet on the night of the 25th, and *poof* the next day, we were told that there's going to be an interview on the 28th! And so, without second thoughts, we decided to try our luck. We left on the afternoon of the 26th. And that was just the start of a week that actually changed my perspective.

28 June 2013.
My first ever job interview. Gaaahd. I would've given anything just to have someone accompany me that time. I thought my friend's interview would also be in Ortigas but luh, it turned out that hers was in Makati. :( Imagine my nervousness as I was on the way that morning. I was alone for freaking out loud and I don't know what will happen next. as To cut the story short, I passed the initial interview and so I was referred to a series of tests to be conducted July 1st. To reward myself after a hard day's work, I went to MOA with friends. :)
 

29 June 2013.
This  day wasn't filled with so much activities since I was stuck at home due to the storm signal #1. But still, I was able to go to SM Sucat to meet my one of my bestfriends, Erika.
30 June 2013.
This day was quite a heavy one for me, cause I ain't fond of saying goodbyes. :/ 'Tis the day my new friend Goretti flies back to the US. I know we may have just started to know each other but it doesn't exempt the fact that I'll say my goodbye to her and see her in who-knows-when again. I started to get worried because I thought their flight was going to be cancelled due to the heavy rains that started last night, but thankfully, the weather improved when we reached the airport. 
With Goretti at the Heritage Hotel

 01-02 July 2013.
Monday was the day of the continuation of the exams. After that, I qualified and so I was told to have my medical that same day so that I can start work on Wednesday that same week! -_- Everything had been so fast but I can somehow feel that small hesitation in my heart. Things went fine on the exam, the doctor just told me to consult my doctor as I get home to get a medical clearance.  I have been quite excited because, hey, it should've been my first job ever! I decided to come home as soon as possible to get my paper requirements so I can start on the same week. 

Homebound with Erika and Kuya Kevin.
   

I thought everything turn the way I thought they would be but it didn't. :( The paperworks were no problem, but when I checked in on my doctor, she didn't allow me to start work anytime soon and told me to wait for a few months. :/   And really, I have been disappointed that time, all my bags are packed and I'm ready to go, but the circumstance wouldn't allow me and so I have no other choice but to stay. Gaaaah. But there's no use in staying glum and disappointed  for a long time. I just think that maybe, it's just not the right time for me. 

Everything happens for a reason anyway.