Define Beauty.

They say, 'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." I'd say, "True beauty is defined by how someone perceive him/herself.' What makes someone beautiful is based on how they see themselves, because no matter how many times you tell  how they look good on something they wear; how glamorous they look on a certain picture; how you look up to them as an icon of beauty; or how many times you tell them how beautiful they are, if they see themselves otherwise, your compliments are practically useless. 

When I see someone confident, I mean, who are confident with themselves and does not let other people define the standards of what it takes to be beautiful in the eyes of the society, it makes me appreciate them more. Beauty, in my own point of view is not defined my merely LOOKS and MATERIAL THINGS, but by the attitude and values of a certain person. It's not about whether people view you as someone beautiful because you are fair skinned; or whether because you have the latest brands of make-up; or whether you own a room full of designer clothes; nor because you have a 36-24-36 figure that guys go for--- but it's about how you feel about yourself that makes you beautiful. 

Because physical beauty won't last forever.  In due time, pictures will fade, your skin will get wrinkled, clothes won't fit you anymore, people will forget how you looked in your younger years, but if you learn right now how to feel good about yourself, no matter how many years pass, your perspective wouldn't be affected as to how the society thinks a beautiful person should look like. 

When you feel good about yourself, everything about you changes. Trust me. :)

Love---The Second Time Around.

They say, love is sweeter the second time around. But what if you never got to have a second time with that person? Would you be brave enough to start another love with another person?

I think, the second time that you will fall in love with someone; it’s going to feel different. Well of course, because when you had your heart broken on your first, you learn things.

The first time was a series of firsts indeed. It felt almost like a dream. You never experienced how it feels like to be engulfed by love and so you accepted love with open arms, embraced the exhilarating feeling of being drowned by your emotions for the first time.

But unfortunately, things don’t go well and you find yourself alone when it fell apart. You change your view on things. When it fell apart and you were left with a broken heart, your perspective changes. You realize that not all sweet beginnings could have their happy endings, that people could be so cruel and break your heart; that not all promises can be fulfilled; that sometimes, words uttered during your early days as a couple could eventually stop meaning anything as feelings start to fade. And that, after a seemingly happily-ever-after story, your world is turned upside down; and so you shut your feelings down.

But no matter how much effort you put into shutting down your feelings, things go unplanned, and there’s this someone willing to exert their very best effort to take down your walls to start creating their love story with you. So after sometime, when you find yourself go into it again, the cycle of love that is, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve learned. And so you remind yourself, “I’ll take another chance on this, but in which case, I would like some advance warning.”

The second time around, or maybe even your third or fourth one, it’s natural that you tend to compare it with your first love. At some point during the beginning of another love, you find yourself comparing teeny-tiny details like, “He/She never gave a comment about my eating habits, why does this one care so much?” or “His/Her eyes are the same as my ex’s eyes.”; the list could go on a long way, and you feel like you need a map to show how to go on with your feelings. That’s okay; you’re starting a new love with someone new and unfamiliar to you— so it’s just normal that you are skeptical and wary. You just have to ask your new love for directions, plus the learning you’ve had from your previous ones, you’ll be okay with that.

The second time around, you feel as if you don’t know where to start and how you’ll go with your feelings. You find yourself asking, “How do you I do this again?”  It’s going to be scary at first, but you’ll realize, falling in love is just like riding a bike and getting bruised for the first time, you never really forget.

And let me tell you, the second time is not the first time, so no matter how stuck you may have been on your first, you have to let go of those feelings so that you can experience another; because you can never really fall in love for the second, third or fourth time with another person if you’re still stuck on your feelings with your first.  The first time will always have that special place in your heart; it’s a magical gift of life that you can never reclaim, but the best part of that first love is that you learned.

No love story is the same as the first, second or third one. Because love is like taking a leap of faith; a gamble with the unknown, and you can never know what will happen with any relationship you currently have at the moment. But I guess, anything can last as long as both of you will exert your very best efforts to make it work. Feelings don’t fade. You may say that you don’t love him/her anymore, but deep inside you, you know for a fact that the feelings will always be there, and that you will always care.

(Photo's not mine. Credits to the owner.)

I hate it when people tend to say irrational things when they get mad, and unintentionally hurt someone’s feelings over a few words—then after their anger has subsided, would ask for forgiveness for what they have said. They think that, it’s as easy as fixing a wound with band-aids. Demmit. >_<




Take responsibility for your actions. Just sayin’.

RF: That’s why, I don’t talk when I’m mad. I’m more of giving the silent treatment, instead of talking impulsively and hurting someone’s feelings because I know, if I talk when I’m mad, I might say things that I don’t really mean which I will regret. At least, by giving the silent treatment, you are giving the other person time to think about what he/she has done wrong and by the time he/she realizes his/her mistake, my anger has subsided and we can talk things through.

Would you rather lose your friendship for superficial flings and a meremixup of your feelings?

Well, think again.

You hafta sort ‘em out first. Because a broken friendship is difficult to fix than knowing what you exactly feel and acting out on these emotions. 

No Strings Attached. ♥

Recently watched No Strings Attached and here are my favorite lines/scenes/quotes from the movie. :D

When Emma was leaving Adam’s house..

Adam: Hey, you know this is never gonna work.

Emma: Why not?

Adam: Because clearly you’re gonna fall in love with me.

Emma: Oh, really? Well, then we just do this until one of us feels something more and then we stop.

Adam: Well it won’t be me.

Emma: It won’t be me.

[he kisses her]

Adam: Good luck with that.

When Emma was having her monthly period, and Adam suddenly went to their crib to deliver some cupcakes and a surprise CD. :) 

Adam: Oh, I understand what’s going on. You’re all on the same cycle. This is very exciting. Your uterine walls will be shedding for the next three to five days.

Shira: Nice memorization. Did you Google that?

Adam: I may have. Because you’re women. And I think that’s a beautiful thing.

Patrice: It’s like a crime scene in my pants.

 

[Adam takes out a CD and presents it to Emma and her friends.]

Adam: Oh, I also made you this.

[hands the CD to Emma]

Adam: To help soothe your womb.

[reading the CD songs]

Patrice: It’s a mix! “Even Flow." “Red, Red Wine."

Shira: "Sunday Bloody Sunday"?

Emma: Adam, did you make me a period mix?

Guy: That’s so romantic!

Patrice: Frank Sinatra, “I’ve Got the World on a String"!

Emma: Oh!

Adam: That’s a classic. 

SWEEEEEEET! <3 ッ

On the evening of Adam’s birthday, his dad invited him to dinner—-to think that dad is having an affair with his ex-girlfriend. >_< Emma goes with him.

Emma: This isn’t really my place. I mean, who am I? I just have sex with your son sometimes. But…

Adam: Yes, she does.

Emma: But, there is really no reason for you to bring a child into this world since you’re acting like children already.

Vanessa: That’s really mean.

Emma: Yeah, I’m mean. But you’re fucking crazy. Cause given the choice between Adam and his dad, given the choice between Adam and anyone really, I’d choose Adam, everytime.

[to Adam]

Emma: Do you wanna get out of here?

Adam: Yeah. Fuck this.

[they get up to leave]

Emma: Oh, by the way. It’s the best sex of my life.

[yells to Alvin and Vanessa as they walk out of the restaurant]

Emma: Great Scott! ッ

HAHA. Thiiiiiiziis one of my favorite scenes. :))

♥

Adam: Go on a date with me.

Emma: [laughing] You’re heavily sedated. 

Adam: Come on, it’s…it’s one date. Just do it.

Emma: Why? So I can wear make up and act perfect all night?

Adam: Yeah. I’ll pick you up and we can talk about our favorite books and our favorite TV shows and I’ll pay for everything. And you can reward me with an over the jeans cock rub. Like a real date.

Emma: Is that what you really want?

Adam: This Friday.

Emma: This Friday is Valentine’s Day.

Adam: Yeah.

Emma: No.

Adam: Go big or go home. They’ll be hearts and maybe some flowers. One date.

Emma: Fine.

Adam: What?

Emma: I’ll go on a date with you.

Emma: I made you a Valentine’s Day card.

Adam: What?

[takes the card looks at it and laughs]

Adam: It’s perfect. Will you read it for me? Is that weird?

[Emma takes the card back and reads it]

Emma: You give me premature ventricular contractions.

Adam: I’m assuming that’s a good thing. ♥

Emma: You make my heart skip a beat.

Adam: Aww.

Emma: Don’t make fun of me! 

Adam: Wow!

[during their Valentine’s Day date]

Emma: I don’t get my own milkshake?

Adam: No, it’s one milkshake, two straws. That’s what makes it so special.

Emma: But I’m so hungry

Adam: We have dinner, later. Didn’t you read the itinerary?

Emma: You’re gonna get more shake you have a bigger mouth.

Adam: You have a pretty big mouth.

[Adam tries to show his feelings during their date]

Emma: I can’t do this. Could you please take me back to work?

Adam: No. No. That’s not the deal. The deal is that we’re gonna walk around and we’re gonna look at the twinkly lights and then…

Emma: Why are you messing everything up?

Adam: It’s what people do. I mean, they buy each other flowers and they go to museums and they don’t…

Emma: You know me. This stuff freaks me out. It’s fake. What’s wrong with what we were doing? It’s working, we don’t have to fight, we don’t have to…

Adam: Maybe I wanna fight.

Emma: Yeah, well. I don’t!

Adam: What are you gonna do? You’re just…you’re never gonna feel anything? How are you gonna do that?

Emma: I don’t know. I’ll figure it out.

Adam: You’re so messed up.

Emma: Yeah? I don’t need you to take care of me, I take care of myself. That’s what I do. 

Emma: Why don’t you go find some other girl who’s not gonna hurt you?

Adam: Because I love you.

[suddenly Emma starts hitting and pushing him]

Adam: It’s obvious. I completely love you! There! 

[she continues to hit and push him]

Adam: Oh! You’re such a wimp!

Emma: I am not a wimp.

Adam: Well then be with me! 

[she continues to push and hit him]

Adam: Okay, you’re gonna fight me. Is that…you’re gonna fight. You can’t fight me, you’re miniature. You’re like a girl Rick Moranis. You fight like a hamster.

♥

Emma: I can’t stop thinking about him.

Katie: Who? Adam?

Emma: Yeah. I know it’s over and I’m looking, it’s just no one is as…

Katie: Tall.

Emma: He’s so tall.

Katie: So tall.

Emma: And he’s so like…

Katie: Happy.

Emma: Annoyingly happy all the time. But he has this…he has the best heart.

♥

[Emma calls Adam whilst he’s at his show opening party]

Adam: Hello?

Emma: Hi. It’s Emma Kurtzman from Camp Weehawken.

Adam: Yes. What is it?

Emma: So my sister’s getting married in Santa Barbara tomorrow and uh…I don’t know. I heard your show was tonight. Uh…congratulations.

Adam: Thank you.

Emma: I know this is random. I just, um…I miss you. I miss you so much.

Adam: Okay. I don’t know what to say. You’re…you’re calling me because you’re at your sister’s wedding and she looks happy and everyone is happy and you’re not.

Emma: I thought…I don’t know what I thought. I just…I…I guess I wanted to hear your voice. I mean, I know we broke up but…

Adam: Emma. We didn’t break up. We never started. I gotta go um…I’m still at work, so. Uh…have fun at the wedding and tell your sister congratulations. Bye.

[he hangs up]

Emma: Oh, fuck!

[Emma looks at Katie]

Emma: I have to…

Katie: Go.

Emma: Now!

[Adam call Emma as he’s leaving the hospital after seeing his dad]

Adam: Hey, you can’t call me and tell me that you miss me. I don’t wanna have that conversation on the phone. So you can’t text me and you can’t e-mail me and you can’t write on my wall. Like, if you really miss me, you need to grow up and get in your car and come and see me. 

[Emma get out of her car which is parked outside the hospital]

Emma: I’m here.

Adam: How…how did you know that…?

Emma: Shira texted me about your dad, so I came here.

♥ 

Emma: I know I just can’t call you.

Adam: No, you can’t.

Emma: I know. I hurt you, I’m sorry. I don’t know why I wasted so much time pretending I didn’t care. I guess I just didn’t wanna feel like this. It hurts.

[she starts crying]

Emma: But I love you. I’m totally completely and in love with you and I don’t care if you think it’s too late, I’m telling you anyway.

[Adam just stares at her]

Emma: Will you please say something?

Adam: Wait. You should know, if you come any closer, I’m not letting you go.

she takes a step closer and he suddenly grabs her and kisses her.

Emma: I love you.

Adam: That’s good.

[they kiss again]

♥

Emma: Wanna go with me to this stupid thing.

Adam: Your sister’s wedding thing?

[Emma nods her head]

Adam: And how long do we have to be there?

Emma: A couple of hours. What do you wanna do?

Adam: Something crazy.

♥

[as they are eating a large breakfast at a diner]

Adam: Wow! Now I know why you never wanna have breakfast with me.

Emma: What?

Adam: You eat like a baby dinosaur. You don’t even chew. 

Emma: You think you can get used to it?

Adam: Yeah, I think so.

Emma: Good. I was hoping we could do this a lot more.

Adam: Really?

Emma: Mmhmm.

Adam: You know, I was thinking we’re gonna have to come up with some new rules. I’d like to start calling you ‘honey’ and ‘babe’.

Emma: I don’t know about ‘babe’.

Adam: No?

Emma: Hmm.

Adam: Snuggling?

Emma: Oh, yeah. I think we’ll just hang in.

Adam: Wow! This is all moving so fast.

Emma: Also, I…I’d like to leave the door open when I pee.

Adam: I think, no.

Emma: I think I’m gonna do it all the time. It’s gonna get weird.

♥

[last lines before credits; as they arrive just in time for Katie’s wedding]

Emma: So what happens now?

[he takes hold of her hand]

SOMETIMES, A FLING CAN LEAD TO THE REAL THING. ♥  :)

It’s not always the mind that DOES decide, right? Sometimes, some things are really not meant to happen. Some people are really not destined to remain by your side for as long as you want them to. People forget. Things change. Feelings change. Memories fade. 

You just have to wait and see what tomorrow has in store for you. 

Don’t forget this : "The more time you spend with the wrong people actually means that you get lesser time away from the right ones." Remember. No matter how unfair this world is, there are still people who will end up sticking with you no matter what.

So, choosing now on who you’ll keep and who you’ll let go is never too late. Who knows? What you experience now might just be a rehearsal for a subsequent event in the future…

Looks can be deceiving.

Being beautiful/handsome doesn’t give a person any right to act like a bitch/jerk.

So what if you’ve got the looks that could launch a thousand ships? So what if you’ve got the smile that everyone would fall for? It does not give you any right to disrespect others and act as if you’re mighty awesome. That everyone would heed to your every want. That you can go around telling stories behind other people’s backs. 

You can call yourself good-looking, but looks is not the only thing that matters. At the end of the day, you’ll have to remember that in time, looks will fade; but your attitude towards other people and the way you’ve made them feel will always be remembered. 

You can fool others with your smile. You can act nice in front of others. 

BUT YOU CAN NEVER DECEIVE ME.

How is it that when you love someone, you let them go, thinking that if they love you, they’ll  eventually come back no matter how many times you let them go? What is the purpose of it? To see if they care enough to wait for you? To let yourself sort out your feelings? 

But what about their feelings?

The thing is, what you fail to see is that they may not come back, thinking that you don’t love them for the very reason that you let them go.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

But it got to a point when missing you made me numb, waiting for you to return to what you were before.

• When you weren’t able to read that first published write-up, it’s okay. You say you’re just busy. I understand.—Only to find out that you’ve read and re-read that letter you got from someone you consider special. Am I not that special to you, too? L
• When you start distancing away from me, I tried to understand. We’re both busy; we don’t have the same schedules. It’s okay.
• When you forgot to tell me the current happenings in your life;it’s okay.
  
  I tried to understand. 
  Maybe you’re still not that eager to share.
• When you started to drift away from me, I tried to understand.
• When you don’t text me anymore to ask for my opinions on things, I tried to understand. I see you have new friends to share thoughts with.

I was hurt all those time but you didn’t see.

Maybe you've heard. But you haven’t listened.

Maybe you've seen it; but you haven’t paid attention. :(

Now, I’m starting to be a different person.

And when I start to find new friends to share thoughts with.

I hope you’ll understand.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve. Why waste time for someone who isn’t even sure of their feelings for you?If they really wanted to, they would’ve tried to show it to you, instead of letting you wait—without even any hint of assurance. They should have been brave enough and told you what they actually feel. If they really wanted to, they could have turned those emotions into actual decisions.

They should’ve done something.

But the fact that they can’t actually come up with a decision, and you waiting for them over and over again is probably enough of a reminder to let you know that you can’t just live your whole life waiting for that someone.

It’s tiring.

Sooner or later, you’ll gonna realize that you are just hurting yourself in the process of waiting.

Don’t waste your time on someone who doesn’t know what he/she wants. With billions of people roaming around this world, it’s not impossible to find someone out there who knows what they actually want—- that someone, brave enough to act on their emotions and turn them into actual decisions. 

Letters to Self: Journey to being a Good Nurse

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  A/N: Hmm. This came as something I didn’t even anticipate writing. It just came to my mind.

I am still a student alright. I don’t mean anything harsh or negative by this. My point is that, we can help in making the world a little better than we found it if we start by making small changes within ourselves.

It just came as a realization to me. I just wanted to share. Actually, I feel like it’s actually a letter I did for myself. To act as a constant reminder to me: that every minute counts and that I shouldn’t be putting off things that are important. I don’t mean that I take studying for granted, I do study hard, but like any other normal student, there are times when things I have/ought to do would slip behind schedule, but not always.

Honestly, I also see myself as someone who constantly needs improvement. Yah we always think that way. Of course, the biggest room in the house is always for improvement, for the better, that is.

Fr: On Second thought…

To: Myself actually. (But can also be for those who can relate to this. )

Dear ________,

You’ve got to start reading. Not later. Not tomorrow. Not next week. Sure, studying can be put off for later, you can finish your college life by just merely meeting the standards of mediocrity. You can graduate with just an “ok” grade. But would you not regret things that could have been if you’ve tried a little harder? If you put on an extra effort, you know that you can do better.

You can’t say that you’ll help in changing the world if you don’t even make an effort to change yourself, right?

You promised you’ve been planning to review your subjects but when really was the last time that you’ve actually read and re-read your notes? Last week? Last month?

Don’t blame any external factors if weren’t able to answer your professor or your graded recitation; or if you weren’t able to pass your term paper on time. You say it’s because there’s little time for you to review or because of the fast and boring lecturer last week, or because you can’t keep yourself from logging on to your favorite social site (Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, MySpace or whatever site that keeps you from doing that homework) or because of your favorite drama that kept you from doing what you ought to do.

You have the tendency to blame others but can you just stop for a little while and think again?

Haven’t you got any part and fault in that also?

You are the one responsible for your actions but why do you point out on others?

If only you’ve read your lessons that night. If only you’ve listened to your teacher explaining. If only you’ve ignored the gossip of your seatmate and concentrated more on the discussion. If only you’ve tried a little harder and made an extra effort. If only…

So many ifs. So many could-have-beens and would-have-beens.

Think of this scenario if you would keep on doing that..

Are you just going to wait until its only a month before the board exams before you start to actually study and indulge yourself to what you are reading?

You cannot cover so much to study on short notice. You can freak out, feel depressed or feel nothing at all then. But you can NEVER back out nor turn back lost time. You can’t waste your 4-year hardships just because you think that you are not prepared, nor you haven’t had enough time to prepare and study for it.

THAT is a very lame excuse.

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

The making of nurse does not start 3-4 months before the board exam. It starts from your realization that you want to enter the realm of nursing. It then continues the moment you set foot on your chosen university until the moment your professor starts with their first lesson. It continues your very last one year in college.

So why nag that a 3-month review is too short a preparation when in reality the review and preparation started way too long ago? You probably were just too preoccupied and claimed that you were too busy to notice that time flies quickly not realizing the importance of every second.

Professors keep on reminding students to read. Read. Read. Read. That’s all. Because they care for you. They want what’s best for you. They know and see that you’ve got the potentials inside you. They know you can do better. It’s just that, sometimes, you tend to do unnecessary things and take the more important things for granted.

You say there’s always tomorrow.

You say you can always do things later.

But what if suddenly there’s no tomorrow?

How can you be so confident on tomorrow if you don’t even know if there’s still tomorrow for you? You can only assume. But you can NEVER be so sure of it.

What you have to do is to exert our freakin’ best today. For what tomorrow will bring to us are only the products of what we do today. Nothing more. Nothing less.

So do what you can do today. Or you’ll regret later.

The making of a nurse is not an overnight process nor is it a piece of cake.

It is a tiring journey and you constantly have to motivate yourself to keep going forward.

It only takes a matter of balance and time management on what you are doing.

Being a nurse is never easy. But throughout the journey, even with the hardships (the sleepless nights, stressful duties and the like), you get the prize of fulfillment that if you study hard and become a successful nurse someday, you can surely make a difference in someone’s life..

Nurses may not be angels. But they are one of the next best thing in life.

Sincerely,

xoxo D

Soo, gotta go for now. Have to study for the exams tomorrow. I’ll just post after the exams. D

Before and After. (And the words left unspoken.)

Letters addressed to you that I can't start writing. Conversations left unspoken. Words hanging by the moment. A misunderstanding that is starting to form a loophole in our friendship. These are the things that come to my mind these past weeks. :( Things I should get done. Things I should do, to correct, to learn..

I don't want to make excuses nor cover up my own mistakes--I know I've been quite busy lately, but hey, even if we do hang out on our free time, we don't anymore talk like before, when we could almost talk about anything, everything. Even if we hang out--eat, and talk?--it only revolves around superficial things, ignoring what is the real issue, why we're starting to grow apart, what's worse--I can't do anything about it. :/

We want to talk to you. Seriously. To talk things over, why we (not only about you and me, but to our group as well) are starting to grow further apart.. I know this may sound a little emo-ish but I'd rather say these things than lose someone close to me because of ignoring things and not talking about it. (You are important to us and you know that. I hope we can really talk things over. Soon.)

Things change. People change. You changed. :/ We used to talk for hours and now I'm lucky to talk to you for a few minutes a day. What's worse, sometimes, those minutes are merely seconds, with only a few words spoken.  You used to want to be with me but now it seems like we're miles apart, even if it's just a few chairs between us. What happened? :( Is it our busy schedules? Or is it merely the fact that we're starting to grow apart?

I'll break the silence. Soon. (Please just give me the courage to do so. :x)

Definitely, I'll do something. I won't let our long friendship turn into the BEFORE and AFTER. :/