Slipped Away.

I’ve been keeping these thoughts to myself until now. I rarely talk about these kind of stuffs because I am the type of person who’d endure just to save a friendship. I’m not writing this to gain sympathy or anything, because I don’t want one. And for the record, I’m hurt and disappointed,  but definitely not angry. 

S-O-R-R-Y

Sorry.

One of the overused and misused word in the dictionary. Why?

• Because it gives the impression that with this single word, everything will be fine. 
• That one word can erase what you have done, what you have said, how you made them feel. as if it’s as easy as counting 1,2,3. 
• That SORRY is like a magic word?
• That saying sorry could make everything go back to the way it was before? 
• That sorry is enough to wash away the pain?

How come people think that one SORRY could fix everything? Fvck. That’s why people think that they can use the word SORRY ever so lightly and so easily. That’s why the true essence of saying SORRY is slowly fading; the reason why, people who don’t value the true meaning of forgiveness repeat the same mistakes all over again. It doesn’t even change the fact that something has changed and that saying sorry is just a move to make it seem like you regret what happened.

But whatever the situation may be, you should always think before you act, think before you speak, before its too late.

Remember, it takes time to build someone’s trust—but a few seconds to ruin it, not even SORRY could be an assurance as to whether trust would ever be granted to you again. 

Before and After. (And the words left unspoken.)

Letters addressed to you that I can't start writing. Conversations left unspoken. Words hanging by the moment. A misunderstanding that is starting to form a loophole in our friendship. These are the things that come to my mind these past weeks. :( Things I should get done. Things I should do, to correct, to learn..

I don't want to make excuses nor cover up my own mistakes--I know I've been quite busy lately, but hey, even if we do hang out on our free time, we don't anymore talk like before, when we could almost talk about anything, everything. Even if we hang out--eat, and talk?--it only revolves around superficial things, ignoring what is the real issue, why we're starting to grow apart, what's worse--I can't do anything about it. :/

We want to talk to you. Seriously. To talk things over, why we (not only about you and me, but to our group as well) are starting to grow further apart.. I know this may sound a little emo-ish but I'd rather say these things than lose someone close to me because of ignoring things and not talking about it. (You are important to us and you know that. I hope we can really talk things over. Soon.)

Things change. People change. You changed. :/ We used to talk for hours and now I'm lucky to talk to you for a few minutes a day. What's worse, sometimes, those minutes are merely seconds, with only a few words spoken.  You used to want to be with me but now it seems like we're miles apart, even if it's just a few chairs between us. What happened? :( Is it our busy schedules? Or is it merely the fact that we're starting to grow apart?

I'll break the silence. Soon. (Please just give me the courage to do so. :x)

Definitely, I'll do something. I won't let our long friendship turn into the BEFORE and AFTER. :/