How is it that when you love someone, you let them go, thinking that if they love you, they’ll  eventually come back no matter how many times you let them go? What is the purpose of it? To see if they care enough to wait for you? To let yourself sort out your feelings? 

But what about their feelings?

The thing is, what you fail to see is that they may not come back, thinking that you don’t love them for the very reason that you let them go.

Not exactly the biggest lie I’ve ever told but one I consider to have caused a change in my life. It all goes down on me denying my feelings back then for a certain person.  I should’ve fought for my feelings back then.  I should’ve told that person what I really felt, and not hold back because of the feint possibility of hurting someone—-but in the end, I was the one who got hurt during the process. 

I should’ve told you sooner. I should’ve believed you when you told me you actually care—instead of doubting that I have always been your second choice.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

But it got to a point when missing you made me numb, waiting for you to return to what you were before.

• When you weren’t able to read that first published write-up, it’s okay. You say you’re just busy. I understand.—Only to find out that you’ve read and re-read that letter you got from someone you consider special. Am I not that special to you, too? L
• When you start distancing away from me, I tried to understand. We’re both busy; we don’t have the same schedules. It’s okay.
• When you forgot to tell me the current happenings in your life;it’s okay.
  
  I tried to understand. 
  Maybe you’re still not that eager to share.
• When you started to drift away from me, I tried to understand.
• When you don’t text me anymore to ask for my opinions on things, I tried to understand. I see you have new friends to share thoughts with.

I was hurt all those time but you didn’t see.

Maybe you've heard. But you haven’t listened.

Maybe you've seen it; but you haven’t paid attention. :(

Now, I’m starting to be a different person.

And when I start to find new friends to share thoughts with.

I hope you’ll understand.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve. Why waste time for someone who isn’t even sure of their feelings for you?If they really wanted to, they would’ve tried to show it to you, instead of letting you wait—without even any hint of assurance. They should have been brave enough and told you what they actually feel. If they really wanted to, they could have turned those emotions into actual decisions.

They should’ve done something.

But the fact that they can’t actually come up with a decision, and you waiting for them over and over again is probably enough of a reminder to let you know that you can’t just live your whole life waiting for that someone.

It’s tiring.

Sooner or later, you’ll gonna realize that you are just hurting yourself in the process of waiting.

Don’t waste your time on someone who doesn’t know what he/she wants. With billions of people roaming around this world, it’s not impossible to find someone out there who knows what they actually want—- that someone, brave enough to act on their emotions and turn them into actual decisions. 

My Share of Couple’s Bucket List/ Wishlist:

Right now, I have no idea who you might be. But I know, one day I will meet you. And one day, I hope we’d do these things together. :)

• Dance in the rain.
• Stargaze.
• Watch in a drive-thru theater.
• Watch A Walk to Remember.
• Travel together.
• Buy couple-y things. :P
• Shop together. 
• Watch a pyromusical.
• Help in an orphanage/medical mission/outreach program.
• Share an earphone with someone special.
• Do charity work together.

Officially TWO-ZERO.

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." :)

I should have posted this last Thursday but my sched at school didn’t allow me, so now I’m posting this. :D

Belated happy birthday to me. Lol. I’m officially 20. Not that anyone cares anyway. :)) I just felt like sharing the happiness I felt as I add another year to my 19 years of existence. Goodbye to -teen years. Haha. [Though I can say that I’m officially TWEN-TEEN. :)) ]My teen years have been pretty awesome—full of ups and downs, but definitely filled with lots of memories that I’ll be remembering for the rest of my life. Cheers to being an adult now! :DD

A big thanks to those of you who remembered my birthday. Those who greeted me thru text/Tumblr/Facebook/Twitter/Wordpress/Formpspring, and most specially, those who have greeted me personally. A simple greeting was more than enough to make my day. :) I may not be able to list you and thank you here one by one ‘coz it’ll take a lot of space. :P but it’s touching knowing that these people remembered and took a little time and effort to greet me on that special day. Your messages and inspiring words really mean a lot to me. I really really appreciated it! Thank you!!! :)

Top 5 reasons why you should consider dating a nurse:

hellyeahkurt:

1.  They can be the best cure for hangover and the most adorable first-aid provider in town.

          Are you going to date a nurse? Well, I’m gonna throw all my worries and stresses away if I were you. No need to fret hangover because an expert will be on your side and ready to give you effective ways to get over it. Of course, your dear nurse will know first hand that coffee is not the best cure for it so you better be passive and play the patient role. Furthermore, if you or someone on the other table accidentally choke during your date, your dear nurse is so ready for the adrenaline rush that he/she will be done doing Heimlich maneuver after a few seconds. You don’t need to fear for other spur-of-the-moment incidents because you have your own nurse ready as hell for anything that might come your way. Remember, nurses didn’t get those first aid certifications for nothing.

2. You won’t hear “Eeeewww”  when they see blood or disgusting body fluids.

          For a well-exposed nurse, blood and pus are common place that they already think of squirting blood as something boring. Show your wounded blood to a non-nurse person and she will be nauseated; show it to your nurse-lover and you will have your wounds cleaned and dressed like its a work of art. They are always on the go and open for new and exciting things so if ever you have a broken heart, feel free to approach a nurse and he/she will mend it for you like its the most special emergency case.

3. They wont be disgusted by your toilet habits.

          You don’t have to pretend to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect when you love a nurse. Believe me, they’ve seen all imperfections that a typical human being has to offer; name it, a nurse has encountered it. You can even fart while with a nurse and she will just answer it with a smile. A nurse looks at a person as a whole and provide holistic care despite that person’s flaws and bad habits. A good nurse is a nurse  that is not judgmental so if you are dating one, just be yourself.

4. They can be your own personal Google/medical dictionary.

          Dating and loving a nurse has a lot of advantages and one of these is the fact that if you’re lost with medical terms mentioned in Grey’s Anatomy, confused with what’s written on your doctor’s prescription, or in a serious search for the definition of Hirschsprung’s disease, you don’t need to look any further because your own nurse is willing to answer almost all your medical questions as detailed as possible. Of course, they don’t know everything but at least it will save you a serious amount of time.

5. They are great listeners and counselors.

          Nurses are not robots programmed only to give medications and assist doctors; they are compassionate people ready to talk to every patient regarding their situation and give some pieces of advice that are vital for their swift recovery. Just so you know, this is what nurses call as “therapeutic relationship”. The good news is that if you love or dating a nurse, you already have your own personal confidante, friend, and counselor ready to catch you every time you fall. It might sound so cheesy but nurses have all the qualifications to take care of your heart and emotions. They are willing to give parts of their selves to people they really love and care about. If they can do it to their patients, there is no reason for your nurse not to willingly do it for you.

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

A/N: This post here is not intended for me. I just saw this while I was browsing on FB.. :)

Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cell phone the next morning and be disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.
Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.
The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn’t want to be anything at all.
Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while.
We went through the great stage with no fights all over again.
We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again.

We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.

This is for us.

Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.

Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again.

We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early.

We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today.

The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.
We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if".
This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation.
The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.
When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn’t mean it.
This is for the ones who held on to something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “You’re just not the one for me." or maybe, “things were going too fast, I’m just not ready."
(Then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)

Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.

The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.

This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “I told you so."

The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us.
We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here’s for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.
Here’s for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart … again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass,
Sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.


Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When your song comes on the radio, turn off the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to.

One day, you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry.
You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.

It’s gonna hurt like hell, and it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

Second chances never gets old, do they?

Second chances are a way to give your best shot to do what is right. "Always believe that you’ll end up where you are supposed to be." :)

Sometimes, not everything goes well on a first case basis; experiments fail many times before it becomes a success; people get disappointed when something doesn't always go the way they planned it.

Just like in relationships, sometimes, they fail not because of external factors but because of you not being ready YET for the commitment. I mean, if you’re not yet ready but you commit yourself in a relationship—-the timing is off and then everything goes wrong. Small arguments become major fights. A single mis-communication can ruin it. Deal-breakers become big consequences that can turn into loopholes in your relationship.

What’s worse? It sometimes turn into actual break-ups between couples. 

As you go on with life, you’ll take note of a lot of people, people who would make up and be part of the reason why you are what you are right now. People with whom you’d share memories with, people who made an impression to you, who touched your life, whose lives you’ve touched and people with whom you’d shared something special with.

That’s pretty normal. In this world, it’s impossible not to meet people as we go on with our lives. 

And then you’re ready. Ready for that relationship. Who is the first person that comes to your mind? I guess, the person that would first enter your mind is the one that got away. Yep. Just like that famous song from Katie Perry with the same title. But, really, who is the ONE THAT GOT AWAY? 

They’re the very first person who you’ll think about because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here with me now?" You’ll ask yourself, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"  THAT’S WHO “THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY" IS.

The biggest “What if?" you’ll have in your life.

What do you do if it’s not yet too late? What can you do? WHAT WILL YOU DO?

Simple…

If you really loved that person and would not want to lose him/her in your life, you’d do something. You’d do anything just to have that second chance. That second chance where you can prove that true love do exists and can exist—-if you’ll exert effort for it.

Find Him. Find Her.

Because the very existence of a “one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Look here.

Second chances—If you’re given a second chance to do what’s right and fix things over and you think that the person is WORTH THE FIGHT, you should grab it. 

Remember, not everyone gets lucky enough to have their own shot at second chance, right? :)

Maybe, you’ll be surprised. You might also be that person’s “THE ONE THAT ALMOST GOT AWAY". :)

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The Best Things Girls Like to Hear From Their Man

The Best Things Girls Like to Hear From Their Man

Words can work magic and they can act like a dagger. How we use them is up to us and when a man is trying to win that special someone over, he is in search of things that girls like to hear so that she falls head over heels in love with him. This is a tough thing to call so you better proceed with caution.

Before you go any further, take a guess at what one of the most popular answers to a question women ask on a man’s most important quality? HONESTY! It is as simple as that, the number one thing they want to hear is the truth. This starts from day one and what you don’t want to do is start a relationship out on a lie. This will lead to cover stuff up all the time and eventually lead to the demise of your relationship.

Once you have trained yourself to not lie to your girl, you need to let her know when she looks good, this is another thing girls like to hear. This is a touchy area for women where you have to make sure that you are sincere. You start handing them out for the sake of handing them out, she is going to think you are insincere and hiding something. This should not be hard to do as I am sure she looks absolutely spectacular at least once a week, just make sure you tell her when she does.

This may be last here, but it is far from the least important things girls like to hear. You have to let her know how you feel. It may not be all that important for a guy to hear, but every woman wants to know her man loves her. You stop telling her that, she has no choice but to think you don’t anymore. You lose her because of this, it’s all your fault champ, no one to blame but yourself.

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