Goodbyes are hard. It maybe harder for the person LEAVING, but it is always the hardest for the one who's LEFT BEHIND.

S-O-R-R-Y

Sorry.

One of the overused and misused word in the dictionary. Why?

• Because it gives the impression that with this single word, everything will be fine. 
• That one word can erase what you have done, what you have said, how you made them feel. as if it’s as easy as counting 1,2,3. 
• That SORRY is like a magic word?
• That saying sorry could make everything go back to the way it was before? 
• That sorry is enough to wash away the pain?

How come people think that one SORRY could fix everything? Fvck. That’s why people think that they can use the word SORRY ever so lightly and so easily. That’s why the true essence of saying SORRY is slowly fading; the reason why, people who don’t value the true meaning of forgiveness repeat the same mistakes all over again. It doesn’t even change the fact that something has changed and that saying sorry is just a move to make it seem like you regret what happened.

But whatever the situation may be, you should always think before you act, think before you speak, before its too late.

Remember, it takes time to build someone’s trust—but a few seconds to ruin it, not even SORRY could be an assurance as to whether trust would ever be granted to you again. 

Everyone wants to find that someone…

Everyone wants to find that someone…

• someone who will prove to you that not all person are like the ones you’ve met on the past
• who will stay
• who will take you seriously 
• someone who will never leave you hanging
• someone who will appreciate you

You know what? At some point in your life, you’ve probably met THAT someone, who’s willing to be the person you mentioned above-- but you probably haven’t noticed. Why? Because you’re too busy trying to get the attention of another person. Because, admit it or not, even from the start, you already made an ideal figure as to what qualities your special someone would have, that’s why even if there’s someone out there doing his/her best to try to let you notice, you wouldn’t even notice their feelings. And it all goes down to this single line, “We accept the love we think we deserve.”

That’s what usually happens, right? Think of it this way, somebody likes you but you don’t feel the same way for that person, nothing feels right and you just can’t find within yourself the courage to accept the love that person is offering you because a tiny part in your mind tells you that you deserve another. You think you deserve the love of someone else, most probably the one you like, right? That’s why you ignore him/her. Whatever effort he/she exerts, you don’t notice, or maybe you’ve noticed, but you were busy trying to get the attention of another person that’s why you were not moved by his/her gestures. But don’t you realize that what you are doing is just the same as to what he/she is doing? You try your hardest just to be noticed by the one you like/love. Because you think that it’s their love that you deserve. Sometimes we confuse love with being addicted to the exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable.


Don’t wait too long. Because waiting is never really an assurance. It’s only a chance..

Waiting is never an assurance as to whether you two are going to end up together. You think that by waiting, you actually get a bigger chance of ending up with him/her? Maybe yes. But for the most of it, waiting only means that you are being given the chance to wait for that person to realize whether or not he/she would learn to feel the same way as you feel for them.  If you always wait, you might end up alone, waiting for that someone who won’t even notice you, when in fact, you can create a happy ending and be with that person who actually cares.

College Tips for Freshmen and students alike.

First day namin bukas. May pasok na naman. Haha. Pero excited na din ako. Last year ko na din kasi ‘to as a college student kaya sasagarin ko na. Haha. (Gah. I feel so old. >_< Meehee.)

Magsh-share na din ako ng sa tingin ko pwedeng tips for incoming freshmen and students alike.

•  Masaya sa college, pramis! Syempre bagong environment, bagong mga tao, bagong experience, halos bago karamihan. Kaya wag ka matakot magpakatotoo sa sarili mo, everyone respects individuallity in college.Mas meenjoy mo ang college life mo pag ganun.

• TIME-MANAGEMENT Sa college, matututunan mong madami kayong free time pag 1st and 2nd year niyo. Nasa sayo yan kung san mo gagamitin ang free time mo. Pwedeng sa leisure o kaya sa pag-aaral. Pero mas mabuti na 1st year palang, e marunong ka na sa time management. Kasi pagdating ng 3rd at 4th year, jan na yung halos karamihan ng major subjects niyo, at kung hindi ka marunong ng time management, ikaw din yung kawawa. Mahirap ang mag-cramming. Wala ding magandang resulta pag nagc-cramming ka. Pwede ka namang magsaya, basta ba alam mo kung pano gamitin ang oras mo. :)


• Don’t be afraid to try something new. Wag kang matakot mag-try ng bago ngayong college. Wag masyado maging mahiyain. Sa college, pinili mo kung ano yung gusto mong course, kung ano yung sa tingin mo e mag e-excel ka, yung sa tingin mo may talent ka sa field na yun. Kaya dapat wag mo sayangin. Sayang naman kung hindi mo ie-explore and abilities, talents, and skills mo ngayong college diba? 


• Be friendly. :) Masaya kapag madami kang kaibigan. Kaso minsan nakakainis lang na tatawagin at ile-label ka pang FC e nakikipagkaibigan ka lang naman. Sakin, pabayaan mo nalang yung mga taong ganun, madami pa naman jang pwede mong maging kaibigan e. Sa college madami ang makikilala mo at kadalasan, sila yung mga magiging kaibigan mo for the longest time. :)  It pays to be friendly kung yung mga makikilala mo e yung mga totoong kaibigan. 


• ADJUSTMENT. Pagpasok mo ng college, for sure madaming bago jan. Bagong experience, bagong kaibigan, bagong school, bagong environment, at kung ano-ano pang bago,  kaya sa una, mahirap talaga ang mag-adjust. Di tulad sa high school, sa college iba ang schedule, minsan may 1-2 hours kayong vacant bago ang next subject, palipat-lipat ng classrooms, paiba-ibang kaklase sa bawat subject at paiba-iba ding buildings. Pero unti-unti, masasanay ka din. 


• College is a continuation of what you have learned in elementary and high school.
  Kung tutuusin, last stage ng pag-aaral sa buhay estudyante ang college (kung wala kang balak mag-masteral at doctoral degree). Lahat ng natutunan mo nung elementary at high school ka e magagamit mo din naman ngayong college, kasi back to basics din lang sa una. Tulad sa subjects, minor subjects ang Math, English, Filipino at PE. Pero unang-una sa lahat, wag mong kalilimutan ang subject na tinuro na satin ng ating mga magulang simula pa nung bata pa tayo, GMRC (Good Manners and Right Conduct). Matanda na tayo, alam na natin ang tama at mali. Sa college, bihira na tayo pagsasabihan ng mga profs natin kung ano ang dapat at hindi dapat gawin kaya dapat, we should be responsible enough for our every action. Sabi nga nila, respect begets respect. Di ba?


• INDEPENDENCE. Ngayong college ka na, mararamdaman mo na ang independent life. Hindi katulad nung elementary at high school na maaga pa ang curfew at madami-dami pa ang bawal, ngayong college eh mababawasan na siguro ang bawal at curfews mo. Pero tandaan lang na sa independence na binibigay satin ng parents natin, kasabay niyan ang pagiging responsible sa lahat ng gagawin natin. May tiwala ang parents natin sa atin kaya binigyan tayo ng independence, kaya dapat lang gamitin natin sa tama. Nasa sayo din naman yan e. 


• SMILE! :) Be confident. Wag mong kakalimutang ngumiti. Ma-re-realize mo na madaming reason para ngumiti ka ngayong college. Madaming excitements at bagong experience pa ang maf-feel mo. Simula palang yan! :)

Sige, sana makatulong tong tips ko sainyo. :)

Goodluck sa mga freshmen students na magsisimula palang ng college life! Enjoy! :)

Goodluck din sa last year namin in college. :D 

I WANT TO BE YOUR FAVORITE HELLO AND YOUR HARDEST GOODBYE. :)

DAY 1: FIVE WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART

FIVE WAYS TO WIN MY HEART:

• Prove to me that you’re not just any other guy.
• Say what you mean. Mean what you say. Simple as that.
• You don’t have to pretend to be the best at anything for me to like you as a person; being yourself would do. Just show me who you really are.
• Someone who remembers even the tiniest details.
• Someone who would exert effort in getting to know my family and my friends. :)

How is it that when you love someone, you let them go, thinking that if they love you, they’ll  eventually come back no matter how many times you let them go? What is the purpose of it? To see if they care enough to wait for you? To let yourself sort out your feelings? 

But what about their feelings?

The thing is, what you fail to see is that they may not come back, thinking that you don’t love them for the very reason that you let them go.

Not exactly the biggest lie I’ve ever told but one I consider to have caused a change in my life. It all goes down on me denying my feelings back then for a certain person.  I should’ve fought for my feelings back then.  I should’ve told that person what I really felt, and not hold back because of the feint possibility of hurting someone—-but in the end, I was the one who got hurt during the process. 

I should’ve told you sooner. I should’ve believed you when you told me you actually care—instead of doubting that I have always been your second choice.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

I missed you. I MISS YOU.

But it got to a point when missing you made me numb, waiting for you to return to what you were before.

• When you weren’t able to read that first published write-up, it’s okay. You say you’re just busy. I understand.—Only to find out that you’ve read and re-read that letter you got from someone you consider special. Am I not that special to you, too? L
• When you start distancing away from me, I tried to understand. We’re both busy; we don’t have the same schedules. It’s okay.
• When you forgot to tell me the current happenings in your life;it’s okay.
  
  I tried to understand. 
  Maybe you’re still not that eager to share.
• When you started to drift away from me, I tried to understand.
• When you don’t text me anymore to ask for my opinions on things, I tried to understand. I see you have new friends to share thoughts with.

I was hurt all those time but you didn’t see.

Maybe you've heard. But you haven’t listened.

Maybe you've seen it; but you haven’t paid attention. :(

Now, I’m starting to be a different person.

And when I start to find new friends to share thoughts with.

I hope you’ll understand.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve.

Don’t settle for less than what you deserve. Why waste time for someone who isn’t even sure of their feelings for you?If they really wanted to, they would’ve tried to show it to you, instead of letting you wait—without even any hint of assurance. They should have been brave enough and told you what they actually feel. If they really wanted to, they could have turned those emotions into actual decisions.

They should’ve done something.

But the fact that they can’t actually come up with a decision, and you waiting for them over and over again is probably enough of a reminder to let you know that you can’t just live your whole life waiting for that someone.

It’s tiring.

Sooner or later, you’ll gonna realize that you are just hurting yourself in the process of waiting.

Don’t waste your time on someone who doesn’t know what he/she wants. With billions of people roaming around this world, it’s not impossible to find someone out there who knows what they actually want—- that someone, brave enough to act on their emotions and turn them into actual decisions.